from the diaries..

Pardon me for interrupting the ongoing (so called 'ongoing') sequel . of course for those who do not follow this blog the above statement holds no truth..

I do regret my specious attempts to portray myself as an avid blogger but sometimes circumstances just do not abide by the laws I have set for myself . I have incurred an utter failure to form a synapse between my brain cells. To think how much I have come down as a retrograding person in the past one month .

After a temporary happiness that came by as my next venture after my graduation, I have gone to a complete zone of hibernation. Not to offend anyone but it gives a hell lot of pleasure when I seclude myself , that's me with my pack of Greek monsters . In fact it sucks when someone gets into my way...that's between me and my pseudo world (and also my Greek monsters)

There was a time when I thought I would be attached emotionally to everything around me..What a hell lot of crap? For what its worth giving a try , I have hooked myself off all the social networking sites...ages since I went on orkut and Facebook is just a fad...Those who read this know how often I write and my last sketch was almost a month ago..I have seen more people go away from me than come close. To sum it all up I am turning myself into a proud, repulsive cabbage . This cabbage seeks no empathy..
I pose no regret , no shame....But is this my downfall ? Or perhaps just one of those bleaky moments.

over an ersatz cup of coffee (part1)

bonjour mon ami !!!

Its been long since the last time I let my fingers roll . The sole cause being my indolence and my ostentatious attempts to write good one-liners which have , on the contrary , failed miserably. And a few other 'minor' glitches have kept me busy for the past few months. I embarked in this journey of finding out what I could possibly do once I break out of the fence that has held me up for the past four years . Apparently I am still on the same errand . Just a thought that occurs as wind for a split second , I was wondering how magically rapid has the transit been between the first year and the final year of engineering . There has been a lot to learn . A lot more than short circuits and machine efficiency and protective systems and god knows what not...

As I retrieve to my world of thought , a stream of vision cascades through my scintillating brains . Well if you think of all the events that have occurred in the past you tend to reckon and weigh all the good things v/s bad ; authentic v/s pretentious ; success v/s failure and consequently , over an agonizing cup of coffee (or tea , or any beverage of your choice) you realize , the latter in each case has taken a stronger stand . Well you might be wondering why I think so much while drinking coffee (well tea in my case..).. but such is the enigma of coffee (again.. tea). It casts a charm on you, stimulates those inactive brain cells and makes you think..think and bring back all those painful/cheerful memories .

As doubtful as I am, I don't think a single post will be good enough to cover my educational expedition in Fr.CRIT . Albeit I decided I would piss off people by stretching this matter to two long boring posts . So here goes volume 1..

(hem..hem..)

It all started when I decided to join the college only because of my lack patience owing to which I decided not to wait further for better colleges to turn up..yes..I joined Fr.CRIT vashi mainly because it was long since I lost my patience to go through the incompetent , inefficient , unassailably agile and slow procedures of Mumbai university . Oh..and I forgot to mention I had a neighbor who was a student in this college and who deceitfully tricked me into it by convincing my parents that this college is at its steep crescendo of improvement in terms of studies and placements and it goes bigger and better with every year passing by..
Not to get pointy at anybody since even I ( as a child filled with fantasies back then) was taken away by the so called 'picturesque' campus of the college - you cannot expect a college to have a few acres of land to it ,inside a city like Mumbai where we fight for oxygen .
And so within no time I have a college to go to and I need not worry about anything for 4 more years . Little did I realize I would be striving my ass really hard to clear the first set of exams imposed on me as an engineer.
Even so I did it . For the first time in those first few months I could clearly fathom the expressions of happiness in the faces of people who even scraped through the exams . I could clearly understand the emotions welding in everybody's heart . I must say the day when the results are declared is undeniably the 'one' day when everybody gets together...irrespective of the results . Then I realized engineering is not only about getting the marks . There were many other things to learn and carry forward even after those four years.
So there we were...innocently staring at our own weak and bleak moments . And within no time we were thrusted into the 2nd semester . Now was the challenging moment..everybody had to prove there mettle . And for those who carried backlogs had to work even harder .

But the fun part is yet to come . Our college has this technical fest every even semester . Its called either 'Etamax' or 'Criteria' or if they run out of names 'Etamax Criteria' . I remember vividly it was called 'Etamax Criteria' in 2007 . It was invariably our first tech fest as kids . I did not know much about fests back then . So when I entered the college in one of those fortunate days it seemed quite empty for a fest . It was made compulsory for us to attend any one of the workshops as Agnels students , else we pay a fine of 500 bucks . My college comes up with these weird norms every now and then . Now that I am used to them they amuse me :) . Getting back on track.. due to lack of acquaintances I did not bother to attend on all three days of our so called fest . It came and it went...not really conquer..at least from where I could see it .

So once it was over we had really nothing much to do . Hardly a month or so for the prelims to start and the fear of exams gripping us . But I could sense in me , along with everything else , that grew was the carelessness , the indifference , the apatheism , my oblique interests in everything 'not engineering' . It was probably just a whim back then eliciting my pristine brains . But seemingly whims don't grow .

Anyhow as I said one post not enough to eloquently put into words the things I have learnt and experienced in four years . Will be back with the sequel very soon .

Till then,
Aloha folks :)